Hello fit friends,
People who know me know that I like to be on-the-go, sitting still and focusing can be a little bit of a challenge for me. In the past I haven’t given my need to be distracted much thought, I actually thought restlessness meant I was extra ambitious. In more recent years, as I explore personal growth and strive to let go of my ego, I have begun to realize maybe there is more to my resistance to stillness. Upon reflection of my past, I see my antsy tendencies have manifested themselves in several different ways, some positive and some not. Not being able to sit in stillness can be a huge plus in the fitness and sports world, I started running at 12 years old (thanks mom) and fitness is a major part of my life, it has helped me be successful in many areas. On the flip side, my restless nature has also left me feeling tortured. Sitting in school was not always easy, I remember getting stomach aches just thinking about going to school in the morning. As I got older this restlessness became less physical and far more emotional. What happens when everything seems boring? You shake it up! For many of us and certainly in my case, “shaking it” up can be chronic and destructive. At times adding drama to every situation seemed like a natural state or a loop I couldn’t get out of. The most painful part was (and still is at times), I love setting and achieving goals, I thieve with structure and I always wanted/want an extraordinary and spiritually fulfilling life, but something wasn’t sitting right. Something inside of me wanted to escape the present moment. I have come to realize a busy mind can be overwhelming and overbearing, this is why we try to escape. Distraction can manifest itself in many ways: stress, over-scheduling, destructive relationships, procrastination, food, drama, alcohol and the list goes on and on. With time and responsibility I have slowly started to find more productive ways to challenge my need to escape. The irony… stillness helps. I exercise a lot and always have, but the meditation aspect has changed my life the most. It is not always easy to find the will or the time, but it is an absolute must. It allows me to tune in, feel my feelings and emotions, but most importantly it allows me to let them go. Overflowing thoughts, emotions and ideas block the flow of our lives and can weight us down. If we do not take time to breath, we can’t exhale and let go. When there are too many things in the mind it becomes difficult to decipher which thoughts and ideas are useful and which ones create chaos and tension. When the brain is crowded, stories form, drama builds and intense restlessness and distraction ensues. Meditation allows me the exhale and release useless thoughts, it also allows me to manifest really awesome ideas and thoughts. Sometimes during meditation an amazing revelation pops into my mind because it is no longer buried under a million other random ideas. Meditation softens my heart, opens my mind and allows my true spirit to come through. Sitting in stillness is not a natural state for me, but I am committed to going with the natural flow of my life, no need to manufacture a drama or storyline, today I actually enjoy simplicity. Today when someone says” I can’t meditate” I know, they would probably benefit from it the most. Thanks for listening to me spill my guts, I am doing a lot of self exploration and learning from my past these days. It isn’t always easy to share, but I think it is important for me slowly share my stories and experiences to move forward in my journey. xoxo Anna.
3 tips to start a meditation practice:
1- Do not judge yourself. Meditation takes practice and there are no strict rules, just be where you are.
2- Moving meditation. My first experience of entering a meditative state was while running. Next time you are walking or running, focus on your breathing and letting go of greyness or heaviness, breathing in light energy.
3- Ease into it. Try a few minutes at a time, 20 minute can be a long time for a beginner. Try 2 or 3 min per sitting and build on that.
See me meditation spots and postures on my instagram: